June 16, 2012
June 09, 2012
June 08, 2012
a nervy unnerving
so maybe you busybodies guys would like some context on that uh expression of anger down below.
It's pretty simple.
Everyone is shit.
I'm supposed to arrange a lesson for my classmates to attend to brush up on their subjects. But it keeps getting postponed cause one way or another either the students or the teacher can't make it. With my teacher replying soso so so so so so so so so soo soo sooo sooo sooo soooo soooo soooooo late to my questions, it's hard to finalise cause right at the death I'll get a text saying "I can't make it" then I'm back to square one. Then everyone will get pissed and I'm supposed to be at fault bollocks.
Personally, I don't mind. It's these kicks I get for leading my class. But maybe, just maybe you guys would wanna try and see it from my eyes and actually be thankful I'm even doing this cause it sure as hell isn't easy. I'm trying my best, I don't need you guys moaning and weeping and crying about it, so just sit tight, trust me andkeep your comments to yourself everything will be fine, no one gets hurt, and I don't explode.
sheesh sometimes I just wanna step down and be my low nonchalant self again.
But enough of that. It's not worth mulling over. Sorry if I offend you guys, but I'm feelingshit unappreciated. And this is how I feel.
Thanks.
It's pretty simple.
I'm supposed to arrange a lesson for my classmates to attend to brush up on their subjects. But it keeps getting postponed cause one way or another either the students or the teacher can't make it. With my teacher replying so
Personally, I don't mind. It's these kicks I get for leading my class. But maybe, just maybe you guys would wanna try and see it from my eyes and actually be thankful I'm even doing this cause it sure as hell isn't easy. I'm trying my best, I don't need you guys moaning and weeping and crying about it, so just sit tight, trust me and
But enough of that. It's not worth mulling over. Sorry if I offend you guys, but I'm feeling
Thanks.
/brace for profanity rant
FFFFFSSS BE THANKFUL I'M GOING THROUGH ALL THIS SHIT FOR YOU GUYS PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE MY FUCKING SCHEDULE IS FUCKING SUFFERING TOO OKAY IT'S NOT MY FAULT ON THE FUCKING CONTRARY I'M TRYING TO IMPROVE THE FUCKING SITUATION SIGH JUST SHUT UP AND COOPERATE OKAY THIS IS ALREADY AS OUT FUCKING STANDING AS IT ALREADY IS.
/thankyou
/thankyou
June 07, 2012
intelligence crisis
I'm starting to get the hang of this 2am writeup thingy thing things now hahaha idk once it starts these things just don't seem to stop(well at least until my holidays are over) (but let's not let that happen) (i hope)
So anyway as I was busy staring towards the heavens thinking of my life and where I've landed myself so far(cause i am philosoraptorical that way), I made a quasi-checklist of my S4 (that's 15 years young) targets and they go along these lines:-
- to get a decent aggregate for my STE (ten and below? too high?)
-to keep my academics in check(well when I say academics)
-try and build up on my maths?(i suck in maths.)
-be fitter than before(honestly idk how i'm gonna check that)
-top ten in my class(which is a huge ask)
Majority have one thing in common. I wanna be smarter. More brains. More IQ. More intelligence. It's what I've always wanted. I've always looked up to everyone more brainy than myself (which is a crapload of people.) and I don't mind that. I enjoy learing new stuff (not taking into account math) (haha kidding) (seriously though) and helping others and all that. I wouldn't mind joining them at the summit though.
But it isn't all cream and cheese. I have an six additional religious content-based subjects to learn and they require a really really huge memory capacity. And the top students have all but cemented their places in the spots that breaking out into the scene is gonna take a lot of hard work. I personally see myself capable of achieving better than what I have now (75%). But I don't seem to have that drive, that last spark to push me all the way through. It's like running a 400m sprint. I can push all the way, but when it comes to the home stretch I will falter and end up going below par. I don't seem to know what's wrong(again disregard my math). Okay maybe my math but I've been trying and I don't wish to go for tuition cause I won't be motivated and I'd end up wasting money. But maybe this time I should?
Whatever it may be, this year will mark a change. I hope to achieve my targets and I will stop at nothing to get what I want (that includes you Battlefield). You shall stand as witness to this promise I have made to myself(and you to some extent) inshaallah.
Someday. Someday.
So anyway as I was busy staring towards the heavens thinking of my life and where I've landed myself so far(cause i am philosoraptorical that way), I made a quasi-checklist of my S4 (that's 15 years young) targets and they go along these lines:-
- to get a decent aggregate for my STE (ten and below? too high?)
-to keep my academics in check(well when I say academics)
-try and build up on my maths?(i suck in maths.)
-be fitter than before(honestly idk how i'm gonna check that)
-top ten in my class(which is a huge ask)
Majority have one thing in common. I wanna be smarter. More brains. More IQ. More intelligence. It's what I've always wanted. I've always looked up to everyone more brainy than myself (which is a crapload of people.) and I don't mind that. I enjoy learing new stuff (not taking into account math) (haha kidding) (seriously though) and helping others and all that. I wouldn't mind joining them at the summit though.
But it isn't all cream and cheese. I have an six additional religious content-based subjects to learn and they require a really really huge memory capacity. And the top students have all but cemented their places in the spots that breaking out into the scene is gonna take a lot of hard work. I personally see myself capable of achieving better than what I have now (75%). But I don't seem to have that drive, that last spark to push me all the way through. It's like running a 400m sprint. I can push all the way, but when it comes to the home stretch I will falter and end up going below par. I don't seem to know what's wrong(again disregard my math). Okay maybe my math but I've been trying and I don't wish to go for tuition cause I won't be motivated and I'd end up wasting money. But maybe this time I should?
Whatever it may be, this year will mark a change. I hope to achieve my targets and I will stop at nothing to get what I want (that includes you Battlefield). You shall stand as witness to this promise I have made to myself(and you to some extent) inshaallah.
Someday. Someday.
Simple Plan - Save You :3
"I want you to know that if you fall, stumble down, I'll pick you up off the ground; if you lose, faith in you, I'll give you strength to pull through; tell me you won't give up, cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know, I'll be there for you."
/guitar solo
June 06, 2012
music appresh post anybody?
So it's 2am in the morning here in my country and I can't sleep so here's one to you guys on music n_n If the particular subject bores you, then by all means piss off but cut me some slack and keep reading okay?
Music is an art form whose medium is sound and silence. That's what Wikipedia says. For me, music is a way for me to shut out the world to experience a lapse from this world and enter one of fantasy and imagination that is music. While some people might go for a catnap, play a sport, or go to their parents(babies) for the same purpose, I just get to a comfortable corner and pop my earpieces in. It doesn't bother anybody, I am not bothered by anybody, everything is fine, no one gets hurt.
Musicians and artistes write songs and play notes as a form of expressing themselves, from what I see. This can be evident either in their way of music, or by the song lyrics and what they mean. In my eyes, this is all valid. Which means I don't have anything against any artistes(which should go the same for you guys toooo). I'm just biased to my rock. That's not wrong either. It's all a matter of opinion and influence.
My favourite artistes hmmm I listen to a ton of rock, from A7X to the Guns n Roses to Metallica and many many more. These bands are traditional slap-heavy distortion rockstars. These bunch I listen to pretty often. Then there are bands that are alledgedly undergoing a '''transition''' like Coldplay and Linkin Park and Radiohead. These bands I listen to a lawwt. What's actually happening is that instead of being lured by big money to change and make bad(shite really) music, these bands are evolving and exploring new ways to capture listeners. There's no old Coldplay or new LP or whatever. They're the same people with better music. If they kept churning out the same stuff year in year out then it wouldn't improve.
I appreciate music a lot cause it's helped me through some of my rough patches. They also capture memories and they become embedded with that song. It's also been a rope tying me to my buddies sometimes and we'd just chill and listen to our favourite tracks or just talk music in general. Basically, it's added a dimension of colour to my gray life and I am really happy for that. I hope you guys feel the same way too!
This is my appresh post for music and thank you for reading :3
(FYI this blog title comes from a song too^^)
Music is an art form whose medium is sound and silence. That's what Wikipedia says. For me, music is a way for me to shut out the world to experience a lapse from this world and enter one of fantasy and imagination that is music. While some people might go for a catnap, play a sport, or go to their parents(babies) for the same purpose, I just get to a comfortable corner and pop my earpieces in. It doesn't bother anybody, I am not bothered by anybody, everything is fine, no one gets hurt.
Musicians and artistes write songs and play notes as a form of expressing themselves, from what I see. This can be evident either in their way of music, or by the song lyrics and what they mean. In my eyes, this is all valid. Which means I don't have anything against any artistes(which should go the same for you guys toooo). I'm just biased to my rock. That's not wrong either. It's all a matter of opinion and influence.
My favourite artistes hmmm I listen to a ton of rock, from A7X to the Guns n Roses to Metallica and many many more. These bands are traditional slap-heavy distortion rockstars. These bunch I listen to pretty often. Then there are bands that are alledgedly undergoing a '''transition''' like Coldplay and Linkin Park and Radiohead. These bands I listen to a lawwt. What's actually happening is that instead of being lured by big money to change and make bad(shite really) music, these bands are evolving and exploring new ways to capture listeners. There's no old Coldplay or new LP or whatever. They're the same people with better music. If they kept churning out the same stuff year in year out then it wouldn't improve.
I appreciate music a lot cause it's helped me through some of my rough patches. They also capture memories and they become embedded with that song. It's also been a rope tying me to my buddies sometimes and we'd just chill and listen to our favourite tracks or just talk music in general. Basically, it's added a dimension of colour to my gray life and I am really happy for that. I hope you guys feel the same way too!
This is my appresh post for music and thank you for reading :3
(FYI this blog title comes from a song too^^)
a new leaf.
After a long long long hiatus (i quit really) I thought I'd revisit the fun of blogging and writing and maybe start over (again) with this blog. Besides, I won't have much to do this June holidays anyway.
So here I am.
For a start maybe I'd like to introduce myself to this world (after they read the 'about me' tab ofc). I'm basically like any other teen shackled to his responsibility in this world (which seems to be only three words: study, study and study) and it sucks. To an extent. Don't get me wrong I love learning new stuff. I just think the stresses of grades here in my motherland is a bit too strong. Don't get me started on school.
In my free time, I Battlefield myself to oblivion (suck it CoD fans), read a bit of Wattpad and listen to music (just kidding i do that ALL the time). MY favourite author is John Grisham, with his well-worked books occupying lots of my time. He writes lotsa action and crime and thriller stuff and throw in a bit of dry humor and an awesomesauce plot and screw it he's a badass writer fullstop. The kinda music I listen to is pretty much detested by 99 percent of my friends(well when i say friends). I listen to a lot of rock, but I wouldn't mind the occasional pop too. It's not that I don't like the other (crap) genres but hey I respect everyone yknow cause music is a matter of opinion so when you say you're right, you're so wrong. It's just a way for musicians to express themselves, so how they express that shouldn't be criticised yknow? Would you bash an artist for his alledgedly crap art? Exactly. . . .
(still find it sad that today's generation of music is pretty shite though)
Mini warning though I tend to swear a lot, which irritates pretty much everyone but when it's necessary.... it's pretty fucking necessary hahaha just kidding I do try to stop but sometimes it just happens so be prepared for a tinyyy tad of profanity as you read through.
This is gonna be your boarding pass to my roller coaster life and with that, welcome, sit back and enjoy my friends.
So here I am.
For a start maybe I'd like to introduce myself to this world (after they read the 'about me' tab ofc). I'm basically like any other teen shackled to his responsibility in this world (which seems to be only three words: study, study and study) and it sucks. To an extent. Don't get me wrong I love learning new stuff. I just think the stresses of grades here in my motherland is a bit too strong. Don't get me started on school.
In my free time, I Battlefield myself to oblivion (suck it CoD fans), read a bit of Wattpad and listen to music (just kidding i do that ALL the time). MY favourite author is John Grisham, with his well-worked books occupying lots of my time. He writes lotsa action and crime and thriller stuff and throw in a bit of dry humor and an awesomesauce plot and screw it he's a badass writer fullstop. The kinda music I listen to is pretty much detested by 99 percent of my friends(well when i say friends). I listen to a lot of rock, but I wouldn't mind the occasional pop too. It's not that I don't like the other (crap) genres but hey I respect everyone yknow cause music is a matter of opinion so when you say you're right, you're so wrong. It's just a way for musicians to express themselves, so how they express that shouldn't be criticised yknow? Would you bash an artist for his alledgedly crap art? Exactly. . . .
(still find it sad that today's generation of music is pretty shite though)
Mini warning though I tend to swear a lot, which irritates pretty much everyone but when it's necessary.... it's pretty fucking necessary hahaha just kidding I do try to stop but sometimes it just happens so be prepared for a tinyyy tad of profanity as you read through.
This is gonna be your boarding pass to my roller coaster life and with that, welcome, sit back and enjoy my friends.
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